Well, I finally feel like I'm ready to announce my next goal...it's been a restless few months trying to decide when I should tell all of you who have been following my journey. I was apprehensive when I accepted the challenge and wanted to make sure that I was fully dedicated and determined to take on this goal before telling the world. I'm the type of person who needs to have personal goals 24/7. But every goal I strive for needs to top the one before...You might be able to tell if you have been following my journey from the beginning. First senior pictures, then a prom dress 6 sizes too small with only 6 months of preparation. And now prepping for a show.
Over the past year I have found an adventurous side of me I never new I had. I have completely changed. From hating mornings and refusing to workout during the early hours to mornings becoming my favorite part of my day and the time of day where I get the most done, from binge and closet eating every night to being overly strict on my macros, I have become a completely different person in the last 17 months. When the discussion came with Kendra, and she asked me what my next goal was, I had no clue. I mean she always mentioned a show, but I was always too self conscious, and didn't have total confidence in myself at the time. To be totally honest, this is why I kept it from my followers for so long. When we sat down and talked about it she brought it to my attention that I was already doing most of the hard work, I worked out six days a week, (if not more), meal prepped according to my assigned weekly macros and I had already proven to her that I could strut in some heels on my prom day. After she brought this to my attention my mind really went into a mindset that I cannot really explain. Basically I saw one goal, one challenge, one opportunity to prove to myself that I could be two percent of the population. Only two percent of the world will actually start and finish the entire prep process and I wanted that. I wanted to experience being part of that two percent.
I committed to the challenge a week after prom. So in the middle of April I took on the challenge. The past 7 months have been a challenge keeping it from people. I mean certain people knew, some people found out, and it slipped out of my mouth a few times but what killed me the most was not being transparent with everyone. I told myself that I would be transparent with everyone throughout my entire journey, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I want to be real and raw so that everyone trying to do this can and will see that I struggle, quite often actually, but changing your body is possible.
So many of you may be wondering why and to be totally honest it has nothing to do with posing on a stage, or showing my body off. Please understand that this is the LAST reason I will be stepping on stage. I am 100% doing this to see what physical, mental, and emotional strength I have. I mean we have already had some struggles, for example, finding out I was allergic to whey protein. I seriously thought that was going to end my possibility of doing a show. How in the world was I going to get in all my protein without being able to have a protein shake. Shout out to New Dawn Nutrition for supplying the best vegan protein out there. Not only is my tummy so much happier, it's the best tasting protein I've ever had. Since switching protein I have had a huge craving to achieve this goal and nothing is going to stop me. I absolutely cannot wait to start my prep the beginning of January.
Plus a HUGE shout out to Kendra. ( if you are a new follower and don't know who she is, 1. Read past blogs and 2. She's the best training anyone could ask for.) She has allowed me to be in every part of her prep for her upcoming show. It has been the most inspiring process to watch and fueled my fire to get ready for prepping for my own show May of 2018
So many of you who I have told or have found out have been 100% supportive and I cannot thank you enough for all of the kind words and encouragement. I am excited to share every part of my journey with all of you. My Instagram stories will be the most updated but I will try to share and be transparent like I was with my prom prep.
XOXO
Brooklyn
